An eventful day

Well tonight is my last night at Keurboom Crescent and I have been feeling emotional all day. I had been geared up to do our final move today, but then it got postponed until tomorrow and now somehow I feel unprepared and wish I could have another night here in my comfort zone. I am also so emotional at taking down all Amy’s toys, paintings and bits and pieces. Her room is slowly being emptied and tomorrow the movers come to take her furniture to the new home. While on one hand this is exciting, on another it makes me sad as her bedroom here is so beautiful and was created with such love. We welcomed our little one into the family and she slept in her bedroom from day one. It is her room and the thought of it being painted back to the yellow colour and returned to the spare room it was before her arrival, breaks my heart. It feels as if that will wipe away what has been, as if she never lived here. It is her room. I don’t think I will look at it, once it has changed. 

Amy loves her room and is very observant. She notices the details of her curtains and the placement of all her toys. She likes to play with the hook at the door, commanding you to stop there when you carry her out . I worry that this move will unsettle her and that she will miss her old room and home, her granny, the woo-woo, gramps and uncle rich. She eats her breakfast every morning, while starring out the window and waves good morning to the trees and Issa the gardener. Each night after her bath she kisses everyone ‘night-night’ before bed. I know she will miss these little rituals, as will I. I worry about my baby daughter but also know that children are more adaptable than we give them credit for and I hope it won’t be long before she (and I ) settle in to our new home. I take comfort from the fact that we will just be down the road!

Also news today is that Amy woke up with a cold. This distresses me as apart from a flemmy throat at 5 months, I have managed to keep her pretty germ free! I know this is part of life and I have to get used to it, but I really feel sorry for her and we will now have to miss Top Tots tomorrow and a friend’s 1^st birthday party on Saturday. On a positive note though, after about 9 weeks of being ‘so close’ to crawling, she finally did! She has crawled now a few times across the room, usually in order to get to some fascinating object and I am quite impressed with her technique. It is as if she has been storing the ability and just waiting for the right time! I am really happy she has finally managed this milestone as I was worried she’d want to walk instead of crawl.

My other bit of news is that I crashed the car today. I took my mom’s car out as my father had parked ours in. I went to fetch my gran to take her to the shops(I am not sure if she will ever go with me again!) We parked in the disabled section as my gran has a disc, due to her severe back problem. There is this concrete boom thing next to the parking place and on leaving, yours truly reversed into it! I had some spectators to my stupidity as well. One, a family friend who looked a mixture of amused and concerned for me (probably because I was about to burst into tears) and the other, a sympathetic woman who told me she had done the exact same thing and those booms are ridiculous and should be removed. It was my fault though as I had been so busy concentrating on the cars coming from the one direction, I just totally ignored the (bright yellow) boom. I have never crashed or damaged a car before and so I was really upset and worried about the cost of the damage. But as my parents said at least no-one was injured and it is after all just a piece of metal. Still after a day like today I am emotionally exhausted and am now ready for bed.